If all goes as planned, I should be finishing my bachelors degree at the end of the calendar year. I’ve spent the past four years just trying to figure out exactly what it is that I’m doing, who I am and all of the other fun stuff that comes along with going from a teen to an adult. The one thing that I’ve learned and have really started to put in to practice this year is investing in myself. Nothing in this world is going to happen to you simply because you want it to happen or because you happen to have a natural talent for it. Everything requires work.
Not to sound conceded but I know I’m going to be good at what I want to do. I don’t believe this because I think I’ve been bestowed a once in a lifetime gift from a higher power. I believe this because I know I’m willing to do what it takes to get to where I want to go. I’m not willing to accept no as a final answer. I was the kind of person, until very recently, where if I heard the word no, I thought it’s not meant to be and I’d move on to the next whatever. I watched a lot of documentaries over my winter break and I realized that everyone I look up, regardless of their profession, heard the word no over and over again. The difference between them and everyone else is that they never let it deter them from what they wanted.
I’ve adopted that mentality and I’ve made more progress towards my goals in the past month then I have in the past four years. Things aren’t going to happen for me simply because I really want them to happen. You cannot simply speak things into existence. You have to invest in your goals. By investing in your goals, you are investing in yourself. Even if I don’t meet a certain goal by the time I want to, I’m not going to quit. I’m going to continue to invest in myself and my future.
Instead of thinking, well this didn’t happen so it isn’t meant to happen think, it didn’t happen because I’m not ready for this change at this moment in my life. I know that is easier to advise then follow. I know sometimes you want to cry out in frustration when you’ve worked hard but it doesn’t turn out the way you want it to. I’m not saying don’t have those emotions or reactions. Have them. It’s healthy. It’s what makes you human. I’m only saying do not wallow in that feeling. Take a self care day and wake up the next morning ready to continue your climb.
I’ve made the decision that I want to be a certain type of person and live a certain life. Nothing and no one, let alone the world no, is going to stop me from becoming that person and it shouldn’t stop you either.