Sooo I haven’t posted anything in closet classics but for a very good reason. Although I’ve bought plenty of new clothing that I feel are classics, I’m currently addicted to shopping on Unique Vintage, I haven’t really felt comfortable posting pictures of myself in the clothing. Why? Because I’m a human and going through some body image issues right now. I just don’t feel comfortable posting full body pictures right now.
I’m not ill or anything like that. I’ve seen what happens first hand when bad body image begins to take over someones life, so I’m going to do something about it. I’ve started going to the gym and doing yoga.My goal isn’t necessarily to lose weight but to improve my relationship with how I view myself and how I view food. I’ve never been a thin person but I was always healthy until I went to college. We’ve all heard of the freshman fifteen but I gain a little more than that.
My parents become health fanatics when I was around thirteen and as I kid, I thought they were changing the way we were eating because I was fat. I kept thinking that way until around a year ago. Around that time I went to a nutritionist, not because I wanted to change my diet and relationship with my body but because I wanted to lose weight and the yo-yo dieting I’ve been doing since I was fourteen wasn’t working any more. The nutritionist, told me that I have an unhealthy relationship with food. I instantly thought she was crazy because I ate. I’ve never restricted my diet in a way that I felt was unhealthy.
It wasn’t until recently that I realized how right she was. I, like many people, associate food with being fat. I won’t eat for a while and then I’ll bing on junk food. Then I feel like crap for eating the junk food and eat more. It’s a vicious cycle, not only for my body but for my mental health as well. I always thought I was doing so well because I was eating and I was keeping it down. Just because you eat doesn’t mean you have a good relationship with food. So this summer, because I’ll have more free time than anything. I’ve committed myself to eating better, changing the way I view food and my body. It’s not going to be easy and I’m not going to fix, over seven years of bad body image food relationships.
Until then, or until I’m in a better space, I will not be posting pictures of myself in closet classics. I just wanted to put this out there to explain where closet classics has gone and why I stopped doing it all of a sudden. I’m just not in the space where I feel comfortable doing that.
I hope you have a safe weekend!